Mikee likes to refer to herself in the third person sometimes.
This is her 5th online journal and she solemnly swears that she will update it with posts that are descriptive of her current emotional state, current happenings and memories close to her heart.
Even if it’s a dumb story, telling it changes other people just the slightest little bit, just as living the story changes me. An infinitesimal change. And that infinitesimal change ripples outward –ever forgotten, but the stories will last. And so we all matter –maybe less than a lot, but always more than none.
–An Abundance of Katherines, John Green
It is crucial for her to find Anne through her stories, for Anne is the adult who knows the difference between right and wrong and acts after deciding carefully without letting her soft side take over. Mikee is controlled by her child self who is deeply fascinated with all things bright and beautiful. Her parent self, contemplates her actions and guides her with virtues close to home. And if you don’t know what the metaphor means, think id, ego, superego –
concepts from Psychology, a science she spent 4 years of college studying.
She leaves it to your better judgment to decide if her thoughts are worth sharing and if Anne is worth finding.
I miss my children.
Don’t get me wrong, so far I am enjoying my time at Greenwich. Each day provides me with an opportunity to lead, learn and love. Work is both challenging and exciting and the people are friendly and warm. I am nothing but grateful for this chance.
But it doesn’t change the truth that I miss them. I miss seeing their bright faces light up. I miss hearing their laughter. I miss the stories (and food!) we share before and after class hours.
Up until today, I didn’t think it was possible to have your heart split in two ways. I do believe that right now Greenwich is where God wants me to be. Otherwise DepEd and all the other NGOs I’ve applied to would have given me a call. Otherwise my pre-employment here would not have gone smoothly. It feels as if the universe conspired to lead me to this moment and although I am still trying to make sense of my mission here, something compels me to stay.
As a show of gratitude, I lift a promise to God to heed this call and do my work to the best of my ability. But I am also promising myself to find a way to bridge the gap between this life and the life I’ve always imagined with children. I see a little bit of my students in the Management Trainees I currently observe — they take delight in the smallest things and can greatly appreciate whatever is given to them. I hope to be of service to them in the same way I was with my children and hopefully they will find meaning in bringing the joy of eating to the members of the Greenwich Barkada :)
Onwards and beyond!
You have been haunting my dreams for nights on end.
Tell me, what does this mean?
I have decided to watch more [TV] and worry less since I only have 5 more days of funemployment. And what better way to do this than with binge watching comedies online! The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt has been getting a lot of attention since its debut on Netflix last month. Produced by Tina Fey and Robert Carlock, the series stars Ellie Kemper, a woman recently freed from 15 years of captivity in an underground bunker. The story is so light and funny you wouldn’t even notice you’ve already gone through all thirteen 30-minute episodes of the show. Catch Kimmy and here crazy gang here and let me know what you think! :)
“There is a silence between us, as we both come to realize the simple truth that is being spoken. We are two women who have recognized that we cannot control the world. We are players in this game, but we do not choose our own moves. The men will play us for their own desires. All we can do is try to survive whatever happens next.”
The story of King Henry VII and his wives started to intrigue me when I first found out about them high school. I will never fully understand what it is like to be royalty or serve under it but I am off to a good start with Philippa Gregory’s spin on historical fiction. The Boleyn Inheritance is written from the point of view of the least known of Henry’s former wives: Anne of Cleves and Katherine Howard, and Jane Boleyn –the woman who betrayed them. This story centers on lust, greed and abuse of power. It is beautiful and horrifying at the same time and you won’t put it down until you find out if all princesses indeed have happily ever afters.
Still now, I send letters into space,
hoping that some mailman somewhere
will track you down and recognize you
from the descriptions in my poems;
he will place the stack of them in your hands
and tell you, There is a girl who still writes you.
She doesn’t know how not to.
I have been a Sarah Kay fan since 2011 and I was very fortunate to have a signed copy of this book during her Philippine show with Phil Kaye. I have always marveled at how strangers find the words to describe exactly how we feel at certain moments in our lives. No Matter The Wreckage captures all the #feels of loving –others, and yourself above anyone else.
And to be perfectly honest, it’s a beautiful collection of poems that I wish I could have written to you and for you.
“When I saw you with those figures, I pictured you getting hassled at school. I thought you needed to be tougher. But I’ve been thinking that protecting somebody by hurting them before someone else gets the chance isn’t the kind of protecting that anybody wants.”
Doll Bones is a story of three children growing up and growing in. Holly Black perfectly brilliantly combines adventure, mystery and the awkward stage between childhood and puberty into one good read. Through Zach, Alice, Poppy, and the mysterious china doll, this book will remind you that great things happen when you allow your imagination to run wild.