Mikee likes to refer to herself in the third person sometimes.
This online journal is a collection of stories from the classroom, the corporate office and everywhere in between.
Even if it’s a dumb story, telling it changes other people just the slightest little bit, just as living the story changes me. An infinitesimal change. And that infinitesimal change ripples outward –ever forgotten, but the stories will last. And so we all matter –maybe less than a lot, but always more than none.
–An Abundance of Katherines, John Green
It is crucial for her to find Anne through her stories, for Anne is the adult who knows the difference between right and wrong and acts after deciding carefully without letting her soft side take over. Mikee is controlled by her child self who is deeply fascinated with all things bright and beautiful. Her parent self, contemplates her actions and guides her with virtues close to home. And if you don’t know what the metaphor means, think id, ego, superego –
concepts from Psychology, a science she seeks to spend her lifetime studying.
She leaves it to your better judgment to decide if her thoughts are worth sharing and if Anne is worth finding.
“In those moments, none of it matters. It’s like that stuff is happening to someone else because all you feel is dark inside, and that darkness just kind of takes over. You don’t even really think about what might happen to the people you leave behind, because all you can think about is yourself.”
This is all too familiar. The darkness. Hitting the lowest point where nothing else matters. Not even your own life.
All the Bright Places was recommended to me by my friend, Maj. The book was surprisingly good despite being about suicide.
- It somehow gives you an idea on what it’s like to have mental health issues. Most people will not understand what you are going through (especially in a religious and family-oriented culture like mine) and will either brush it off or attempt to “fix you.” When you hit rock bottom and think about taking your own life, people will call you selfish or stupid. Very few people realize how difficult it is to have your thoughts and emotions take over your entire being, how clouded your judgment can be, and how miserable it feels to not be able to see the bright side of things.
- Most people who lose loved ones to suicide tend to blame themselves for what happened. Maybe you could’ve done more to help. But don’t forget that you can only do so much. Sometimes we need to remember that we can’t save people who don’t want to be saved.
- However, it does not mean that we will deny the love and support they deserve. Awareness and empathy can go a long way and stories such as this can help that spread.
It may not be much, but it’s a start.
Minsan nakakainggit makita yung mga pamilyang nagsisimba kasi ako mag-isa lang. 7 taon na ako sa Maynila pero minsan hindi ko pa rin maiwasang hindi mangulila. :(
Today marks my 6th month with Greenwich.
Paano ba unahin ang sarili?
I’m sorry I was not strong enough to choose you.